hush

Honestly, this freaks me out. It’s been years since I’ve written a journal, in fact, I barely wrote a journal! It’s one thing to talk about yourself, about life, and a whole lot of other things in an actual conversation and another to actually record your thoughts. I know it works for most people and their really good at it. It  really is a great thing but it just scares me to write my heart and soul, caught up in a moment, because when that moment withers and be better off forgotten, I’ll be reminded of it because of this. I don’t mean to sound cynical but the thing is, I’ve done really foolish things in my life that I’m not totally proud of, which I don’t want to regret either, and so I choose to block it out of my system and somewhat move on… I’ve been successful with that for quite some time now but it did take away so much.